Jail Time.

im goin to jail tonight i heard. im excited. my life of dysfunctional shitty christmas's will continue on another year. i love how a simple bullshit feud between "family" turns into so much more. i guess im the only one to blame. why not, thats who everyone else is blaming. when i think about my life since i moved to torrington, i think about all the trouble and bullshit and drama ive experienced and encountered. sure ive had some fun. ive met some people. i have stories to tell. but the fun ive had was probably at others expense more than mine. the people ive met have either turned on me or just turned their backs. and the stories im telling are mostly negative. its just more to add to my life i suppose. i can say this much. life has never been bad enough that i have to steal neccesities. ive never had to scrape out my change jar for money for cigarettes. ive never had to steal clothing and food and cigarettes and anything else i needed. ive never had to worry about where i can spend the night in the below freezing weather. ive never had to worry about whos coming for me and whos plotting and planning something against me or without me-- until now. i have to worry. is my identity being used? i  have to worry about all these bills that other people have racked up and i now have to find a way to deal with. but i cant even imagine paying them yet. i cant keep a job because of all the bullshit thats been happening. my whole family ( what i have left ) has forgotten about me or used me or become my enemy. its a great feeling. i have a lot to be thankful for. life is great and it just keeps getting better. hopefully its nice and warm in jail.