Chances.

i think. thats what i do. i think more bad comes of it than good, but either way i have to deal with it. i think about shit in the past. i think of how shit was. i think of  how shits changed. i dont like a lot of the changes. a lot of the people i knew, and let know me, are gone. i feel like they dont care. i know they have their own problems, and lives and shit to deal with. . but i feel like theyve abandoned me. have you ever regreted not taking a chance on something? not doing something so that things wouldnt change and things wouldnt get weird? not at least trying so that things would stay familiar. maybe change is good. im normally not afraid of change, yet for some reason in this circumstance i was. in this situation i felt it better to not take it a step further and make it more. i didnt want what we had to be different. i didnt want shit to get weird. i didnt want to lose the strong friendship we already had. but its gone now, and i dont know why. maybe that chance i was too worried to take could have worked. maybe not. but now shits different. its better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all. maybe thats why it hurts.