Relationships Are Stupid.

i once knew this girl, she meant a lot to me, i guess she still does, but she didnt feel the same. the whole time she played games. she fucked with my feelings and emotions because   "it was fun". i constantly wondered and worried about what she was thinking. when i tried to talk to her she couldnt be bothered. i tried to get over her, expecting what i thought was the inevitable. it didnt work. she constantly reassured me that i was worrying about nothing. she started avoiding me more and more. i tried to ignore it. eventually she broke up with me. she said she couldnt trust me. she said i changed. she said i cheated on her with my best friend that i only saw twice the whole time i was with her. i knew it was something else. she tried to have someone close to her break up with me for her- then she changed her mind. we broke up but she continued to sleep in my bed. she continued to play games with me, and my heart. she still said i love you and asked for hugs and kisses. i didnt know what to think. finally i found out the truth. around the day that she tried to have her aunt break up with me, she started dating someone else. she went out every night, but when she came back she was still in my bed. she still said i love you and ill always be here for you. she involved other people. she told them she was just playing games with me for the fun of it. she told people that she didnt have a new boyfriend and she said she did to make me feel like shit. she got pissed when i went out and talked to a girl one time. she got pissed when i went out and met a girl and came home with her phone. she spent the night with her new boyfriend that night. that was the first night she wasnt with me. i talked to her new boyfriend and explained the whole situation just like its written here. he, im assuming, broke up with her. she got pissed and threw all my shit out of her house. her cousins, im assuming again, went through it and stole from me. she said i stabbed her in the back and sher can never forgive me. she said i had no right calling her boyfriend and "lying to him". i didnt lie once. i didnt do anything i shouldnt have. she needs to grow up and learn that she got caught playing her game. she needs to play it better next time i guess and stop being pissed off. her aunt asked me to call her boyfriend and tell him everything i said to him was a lie. i told her i cant do that because nothing i said was a lie. she begged me to- but i cant. i did nothing wrong. i now know that the whole time it was just a game to her. it really hurts me because i do love her and i do care about her but the feeling were never really reciprocated. im so sick of people that play games and manipulate everyone around them and stab people "they love" in the back. what the hell is wrong with this world? i swear, all my experiences are making me have a skitsofrantic mentality. i cant trust anyone. i cant tell anyone anything. i cant even talk to anyone. now that i have nowhere to live, my mind and property is all misplaced and scattered around, and i feel like i dont know anyone. life is a great thing.